eimai ontws atomo pou exei idiaiteres ikanothtes h oxi?
tha eimai oso pio shntomos ginetai gia na mhn sas kourazw poly ola ksekinhsan akrivws prin apo 2 xronia otan ekopsa ta abilify gia epta mhnes peripou emena monos ekeinon ton kairo kai h zwh m nomiza pws einai meros reality show oti me parakolouthoun ayto ksekinhse apo to 2005 otan hmoun me thn mhtera m idees diwkseis kai oti me parakolouthoun apo thn thleorash kai tetoia shzhthseis p akouw gyrw m oti aforoun emena den evgaina apo to spiti gia peripou 3 xronia ospou mia mera apofasisa na agorasw mhxanaki kai na paw na doulepsw paketas ayto shnevei to 2008 to semptevrio me poli dyskolia sthn arxh sthn douleia giati eixa to ekshs provlhma kamia fora se periodous entaseis otan den eimai kala aisthanomai oti o kosmos allazei gyrw mou to vlema ginetai pio argo oti oloi emena koitazoun kai peftei h psyxologia m h aisthisi twn syzythsewn gyrw m ginetai pio entonh kai telika den mporw na kanw tpt eimai poli mperdemenos thymamai m synevei pali sthn douleia to gegonos ayto anysyxies ths apokalw egw aytes tis katastaseis me apotelesma na paw me to kouti sto spiti kai na dikaiologhthw thn allh mera pws phga espesmena sto nosokomeio giati me epiase entonh zalh.den fovhthika omws pote thn douleia h anysixies siga siga meionwntousan me kalo symmaxo to abilify vrhka allh douleia edw konta sthn perioxi m kai antexa mono mia fora eixa anysixies kai tis palepsa en wra douleias asxhma vevaia katalavan oti kati m synevei kathws den mporousa na synenoithw akoma kai sta thlefwna pou xtypousan alla m ferthikan kala thn paraggelia thn phgaina opws kai na exei.mexri pou eftase to 2012 opou apofasisa na stamathsw ta farmaka kathws den eixa xrhmata na ta agorasw arxes loipon tou 2012 apofasisa na meinw monos se ekeino to spiti eixa ta prwta pshxosomatika symptwmata ksekinousa kathe mera legontas apo mesa m kane kati an to thes pragmatika gia ena mhna peripou epaiza paixnidia sygkentrwseis ston pc kollaga ekei gia wres gt to provlhma p eixa me tis anysyxies htan thema sygkentrwseis allakse ardhn to vlema to mati m phgaine sfaira den kollousa pouthena.diavaza kathe mera ton aggelioforo tis eidhseis p eixe kathws epsaxna k gia douleia aytomatws mia hmera p m efygan kai idees parakolouthiseis kathws eipa apo mesa m pws ayta ola p symvainoun symvainoun g olo ton kosmo kai oxi gia emena hmoun se kalo dromo.ta psyxwswmatiko to prwto htan oti to ayti kai to aristero kai to deksi etrexan aima kai akouga mia fwnh na m leei sto myalo pws afairoumai ligo hxo apo ekeino to shmeio arxisan oi fwnes fwnes pou tis akouga sto aristero m ayti to ayti m eixe tosi eyaisthsia pou synhthws aytes oi fwnes ithelan na me symvoulepsoun ekeino ton kairo nomiza pws htan ena team pou me exei valei sto mati kai thelei na me kanei pio dynato alla ayto allakse apofasisa kai phga kai emeina sthn mhtera m opou gia enamisi mhna peripou den me epiane ypnos kathomoun sto krevati ekleina ta matia m kai skeftomoun xwris farmaka malista ekeino ton kairo se ekeino to diasthma synaivei kai to eksis psyxwswmatiko kathws xaplwsa sto krevati eniwtha me kleista ta matia na talantwnwntai ta matia m pros oles tis kateythynseis me apisteytei taxhthta gia ena lepto peripou ekeino to diasthma nomiza oti milaw me tria diaforetika atomo ton theio m ton patera m thn theia m kathws kai mia fora me thn psychologo m polles wres athliseis kathws k diavasmatos ekeinon to diasthma olh thn hmera.
ekeino to diasthma m synevei kai to eksis fainomeno kathws hmoun katw sthn paralia kai ekana thn volta m(polla xiliometra perpathmatos pantws genika katw sthn paralia)kalokairi htan iounios eida kathws kathomoun se ena pagkaki gyrisa to vlema m aristera k eida panw apo to kefali mias kopelas zhthma na htan 15 xronon mia maza fwtwniou san synnefo ypsous dyometrwn na to vlepw kai na eksafanizetai gia peripou 2 sec to aksioshmeiotw einai oti h kopela gyrise k me eida k kounouse to kefali deksia aristera san na eixe epilhpsia h kati tetoio m ekane poli entypwsh to gegonos kai sumperana pws eixe na kanei me hlektromagnhtismo.sthn synexeia irthe o pateras m apo thessaloniki kai phga na doulepsw katw athina mazi tou ekei kata parakseno o ypnos me epiane mesa se dyo lepta den ekatsa poloi kairo stis 10 meres efyga den mporesa na ton anteksw .anevhka thessaloniki ospou h mhtera m me ekleise mesa me eisaggeliki g plakwthika sto ksylo me enan malaka alvano sthn paralia empaina mesa sta magazia den plhrwna k tetoia sthn stayroupoli me diegnwsan dipolikh diataraxhekatsa tesserismeres vghka allaksame kai thn agwgh k epairna rispelen den perase enas mhnas kai ksanamphka mesa aythn thn fora pali gt plakwthika kai malista me evalan ston papanikolaou gia 20 hmeres opou me eixan demeno gia 10 hmeres vghka perase o kairos xwris ypotroph wspou ton noemvrio tou 2012 eixa mia ypotroph k ekatsa mesa sto axepa to dhthenpanepisthmiako nosokomeio ths thessalonikis gia enan mhna k 11 hmeres afou drapeteysa k apo ekei.to fetino kalokairi pali eixa ypotroph den kserw pws na to pw alla xwris logo idiatero h mana m ksanaekane eisaggelikh k me evale mesa sthn stayropoli eytyxws ekatsa 5 hmeres.to kalokairi p mas perase eixa pali aythn aisthisi oti mporousa na vlepw thn thermothta tou aera san na allazei oaitheras gyrw m kati san hlektromagnhtimos pali alla se olo to eyros fwtwnia pantou twra edw kai ena mhna exei stamathsei ayto kathws h xeimerinoi mhnes den me voithan katholou tha sas po k alla afou perasei o kairos eyxaristw g thn ypomoni sas