to diko mou \"marturio\"..
geia sas...eimai i eugenia, 22 etwn k tha ithela na moirastw mazi sas to provlima mou, giati profanws tha me katalavete mias k eiste oi perissoteroi pathontes...
gia na eimai eilikrinis den mporw na "katalavw" poio einai akrivws to provlima mou, an eimai anorexiki i voulimiki...to mono sigouro einai oti fusiologiki den eimai! i istoria mou loipon ksekinaei prin apo 4 xronia...
anekathen imoun paxouli,oxi kati tromero, pou na me kanei daktulodeiktoumeni, kumainomoun apo 60-65 kila k me ipsos 1,73 - kapoios tha pei, "auto einai to fusiologiko varos analoga me to ipsos sou"..k omws oxi, mou elegan sunexws na xasw toulaxiston 5 kg...k egw den eniwtha katholou aneta me to swma mou..wspou to pira apofasi...meta apo kati kalokairines diakopes, i zugaria anevike sta 68 kila...auto itan to teleiwtiko xtupima..."irthe i wra na rapsw to stoma mou" skeftika...k etsi ekana....
etrwga mia fora ti mera..auto ginotan gia 10-15 meres, alla meta me epianan voulimikes kriseis gia 4-5 meres...katanalwna terasties posotites apo vlakeies...alla den ekana emeto...i mallon den to eixa epixeirisei pote!
gia na mi makrugorw, twra eimai 47 kg (1,73 opws eipame), sunexizw tin idia taktiki (oxi epeidi to thelw, apla exei ginei tropos zwis k den mporw na to allaksw), dld gia 2-3 vdomades akolouthw tin taktiki tou anorexikou atomou (trww 1 fora ti mera, kati polu mikro - mporei k gia 2 meres na min faw apolutws tpt) k meta apo auto gia 4-5 meres na exw apeira voulimika epeisodia...
tis imeres pou me pianoun kriseis voulimias, exw vrei san lusi tous emetous, ta kathartika (exei tuxei an exw faei upervoliki posotita fagitwn na parw mexri k 14 xapakia) k diouritika pou katevazw san karameles..
den thelw na xasw alla kila,eimai polu ikanopoiimni me to swma mou twra..vevaia oute k na parw....exw kourastei polu apo auti tin istoria 4 xronia....to mono pou thelw einai me kapoio tropo na stamatisw ta xapia k tous emetous....(xapia pairnw edw k 2 xronia, se kathimerini vasi mono tis 4-5 meres voulimias...tis upoloipes meres den pairnw kanena)...niwthw pws an sunexisw etsi me ta xapia, tha exw alla provlimata, me ta nefra klp klp k fovamai...
tis meres tis voulimias, eimai xalia...de thelw na vlepw anthrwpo, den vgainw pote apo to spiti, exw polla neura, tsantizomai me to paramikro....antitheta stis meres tis "anorexias" niwthw polu anevasmeni, gemati energeia, exw oreksi k kefia na kanw polla pragmata, na gnwrisw anthrwpous, na paw voltes...
pote den exw niwsei katavevlimeni i oti de me kratoun ta podia mou..pote den exw niwsei adunamia i atonia, para ta liga kila mou...(edw pou ta leme den moiazw gia 47 kila, alla toulaxiston gia 52-54, mporei na akougetai upervolika xamilo to varos mou, ennoeitai den moiazw na eimai tosa liga kila, k omws eimai)...to mono arnitiko einai, oti den mporw na akoumpisw, na katsw, i na stirixtw gia polli wra kapou, giati, to derma mou ponaei epeidi "trupietai" apo ta kokkala..
apopse eixa voulimiko epeisodio....den mporw na thumithw ti efaga se diastima 2 wrwn...itan tosa polla...perimenw na koimithei i oikogeneia mou, gia na kanw emeto me tin isixia mou...(den exoun idea oti kanw emetous, antitheta mprosta tous trww kanonika oles tis meres)...exw vrei mia nea patenta, gia na "anevainei" i trofi pio eukola...anakateuw se mia goulia nero, 1 koutalaki mageiriki soda..otan to katapineis einai aidia...se fouskwnei k nomizeis oti tha kaneis mpam...alla amesws vgainoun ola toso eukola k xwris idiaiteri prospatheia!
meta seira tha paroun ta diouritika...den tha mporesw na koimithw to vradu, kathws kathe misi wra tha sikwnomai gia na paw na "ksalafrwsw" tin kusti mou..alla den peirazei....to sunithisa k auto!!
den kserw giati sas ta eipa ola auta...isws epeidi exw tin asfaleia tis othonis, i tin asfaleia tou agnwstou...den exw suzitisei pote auto to thema mou me kanenan...veveaia oloi mou lene pws eexw adunatyisei polu, pws prepei na paxunw ligo, idi kapoioi allloi mou lene oti moiazw me anorexiki..alla tous vriskw upervolikous...
opws eipa k prin, to mono pou me noiazei einai na stamatisw ta xapia k tous emetous..alla den kserw pws!!!
Y.G: suggnwmi gia ta greeklish....to pc mou den grafei ellinika!