<3 BIPOLAR POETRY<3 ^,^ !!!

Η αλλιως οταν η Lacrymosa_Bipolar_Bitch εχει εμπνευση!!!

Λοιπον guys μιας κ μου το ζητησατε κ σας το υποσχεθηκα κ εγω αλλωστε, ανοιγω αυτο το θρεντ για να βαζουμε οι bipolars κ μη ο,τι εχουμε γραψει κατα καιρους η γραφουμε απο στιχους κτλ..!!

Σας παραθετω λοιπον ορισμενους απο τους στιχους που εχω γραψει κατα καιρους κ πιο προσφατα being on different moods !!

Περιμενω σχολια κ εντυπωσεις να μου πειτε αμα σας αρεσουν η οχι κ επισης οσοι γραφετε βαλτε κι εσεις τα δικα σας ωστε να μειραζομαστε feelings!!

(α κ βαλτε κ καμια θετικη ε?? επι 4 ωρες τα αντεγραφα απ το ημερολογιο μου στο σκατοοffice μου, full exhausted τελειως λεμε....:P )

Λοιπον ξεκιναω κ επεται κ συνεχεια!!

Stay on !!

:)

’’My Emptiness”


I ‘m living in a world that steadily kills me
I feel so incomplete and I can ‘t even speak
You seem to be innocent but I really know that you ‘re not
Can you tell me why you treat me like that?
You pull me away and you seem to be indifferent
Whether I ‘m feeling good or not
Please don ‘t leave me alone!
Please come and save me from this emptiness!
Why have I to feel like that?
Why have I to hurt and suffer so much?
I strongly believe that you have never felt like that before
Well, I ‘ve made many mistakes in my life and received dissatisfaction
But I know that it kills me imperceptible
And this connection seems to be like a venomous snake that
Bites me with rage and I can ‘t get away…
Can you come and stuff my emptiness?
Can you cover my desperate feelings?
No, you don ‘t wanna save me, but hurt me and leave me here in pain,
Through all that disaster and suffering all alone…

“Hearty Addiction”


Today was just another consecrated bad day for me
As I got up angry, arrogant and reckless
Wanting just to kill them all, kill the ghosts, reveal my pride!
I just accidentally forgot everything I was proposed to do
Breaking up with my boyfriend for the 20th reason the 20th season
And also arguing with all my friends that tried to make me feel retarded
You may think that just a typical day has passed by
But though I won ‘t give up!
I ‘ ll have a happy, nice trip to myself
Full of joy, colours, passion and sedation
Dimensions and divisions adding beside the target
I put the drugs on my intention again
They just always know the way to treat me well
Bring me to the top of the world, to the top of the feelings
Making me something I had never thought about before
Wanted, superb and extraordinary, just for an unusual reason
It ‘s now my best friend, in love with my eternity!
They will never leave me alone
They know exactly how to lift me up to the sky
But throw me down after a while
Baby, come back at my dreams like a delusion
Say you love me and take me to the sky
Just confirm me that I ‘m not living in a dream!
Till then I ‘ll have to drown myself…

(αυτο το εγραψα οταν ημουν high.....:P)

“Freaky Scary Junkie”


I ‘ve tried to become someone else, just to suffocate my instincts
But nothing seems to have changed
My sinister desire is here to remain a torture forever
I know that to go on I have to break my habit
I will save myself, I will kill myself
So what if I am falling onto the floor?
Do I dislike my breakdown?
Look in my eyes deep inside, I ‘m dying and screaming till death
What visions show is only to ignore
What actions show is just only what has to be seen
So what if I wanted to fight,
Will I gain the rest of my life?
I ‘m now running away from this all, I have to let it go…
I ‘m lost in the wind of space, just a broken freaky scary junkie
Trying to escape from it all…
Now you can see the darkest side of me
Losing the ability to control myself anymore…

“Narrow Streets”


Now that you ‘ve gone away
Just take a look at me and wonder
What have you really done to yourself?
I just watch you making the same mistakes again
Tell me the reasons,
Why you ‘ve rejected me and I can ‘t find back
What you ‘ve left inside me?
I hide my feelings, I can’t find my dreams
I ‘m losing my mind, I ‘m falling from life
I ‘m broken inside…
These shallow dreams have always blinded me
These narrow streets were the best solution
Into the refuge of your heart
My nightmare has turned into a curse
Narrow streets I had never seen before
The trust I give in you is your permanent obsession
The smiles that you hide behind me is my persistence
Our story had a bitter end
Nothing like the visible effects I was shown off
Freeze the time, please, freeze my emotions
I want to stay in pain, absorbing this sorrow…

“When the Rain is Falling down”


All the crazy times that we passed together
These will be the perfect only reason to keep on living
Even if it ‘s cold and rainy, it ‘s so simple
I recall your smile that can cover all the clouds in my heart
I can see it when it appears in the distance but
Suddenly after a while it disappears accidentally again
And the rain keeps falling…
And my dreams keep storming…
And my dreams touch frozen, I will let them over…
When the rain is falling down
Can you just arrive like a shining to make me feel I ‘ m alive?
Pause what I ‘m living just to come close to you
To feel your breath, to reach the pain
To hear the death, to touch your face
To cry at you and say I ‘m sorry
I ‘m standing here torn, but there ‘s something sweet
Thinking of you always gives me strength
Lay next to me, just do it, can ‘t stand feeling alone
All over the times we were together and lost in passion,
I beg, just come back at me
When the rain is falling down
The shadows of your existence is here to show me the meaning
To remind me I have to keep going on…

I ‘ m lost into my external infinity
I think I have to follow a reaction
If only I could burn my thoughts impassionately
It ‘s just difficult to attain the infeasible reality
I ‘m just living a lie beyond hallucinating
The integral reason to satisfy my emotions
But never mind, any time you can be stranger
I could not avoid getting in…
The moonlight would argue just after I ‘d justify
My reasons, my hopes, my internal devastated region to stand by
My wasted resistance, the ruins in my soul…

Time is frozen, seconds seem like hours
Hours seem like an endless suffering
It ‘s just what I didn ‘t want it to be
They come to give an answer to all my ambiguities
And clarify to search yourself, just to reach the reality
After you wanna fall into the disaster you ‘ve caused yourself
My forgiveness is only a second chance
But sometimes second chances don ‘t even matter
It ‘s now that the war starts to show the signs
It ‘s now you have to face the truth
The internal mystery leads to an external conclusion
If only I could stab my soul
To harm myself after fading away
The obsession is not before you reach a destiny, right?
The destiny that time seems to have forgotten…

Nervous and unafraid, beware of lies, awake and dead
It ‘s when you start to give in after thousands of trials
Fade away from my dangerous safety
Can you hear me crying?
Can you listen me as I say goodbye this time?
My horizon is full of pictures, strained ropes,
Wicked holes, shallow dreams, decay and fright
Can you save me from death and apathy?
So lost and laying in a fantasy
Living in a misery, facing a delusion
If only I could end it all…

I ‘ve tried so many times and I insist on it
But my self is the last but not least that I could escape
So many times I ‘ve tried
But I ‘m still trapped into a harsh thunderstorm
Things and thoughts keep storming, trying to explain where I am…
Fearless or needless?
Fighter or loser?
Seeking into the darkness for the impersonal and indifferent light
My inside walls are falling down now and again
My trust is broken, my heart is devastated
The desperate signs are bringing a deception
The world of lies
The world of fears
The soul of hurt and suffer…

“Needles and Pills”

This darkness covers my feelings
This place is so empty and frightening
I think that I am threatened to do something right
for me now, or I maybe have to become a ghost
A real fantastic ghost for all those who killed me
I may have fallen but I ‘ll be back again
You want to save me??
No, I don ‘t wanna be saved from hell !!
This colours and words and sounds surrender my world
They will not even change
When you explain why you hate them
They say I am right here, but I feel so distant
I ‘m screaming to myself, I ‘m falling into the sky
I ‘m bleeding till death
Through that distress, some pills and needles
Well, after all that I think I ‘m so needless
I wish I could turn back the time
To reveal the ghosts that haunted my soul
But even then I wouldn ‘t say I ‘m sorry
I ‘m just saying goodbye this time
And in my next breakdown I ‘ll acquire the abilities
I hoped I ‘d have something stronger to say
To remind that I ‘ll carry on !!
I can ‘t forget the times that I was lost and
This is now a sense I never knew I ‘d have
I ‘m thinking for myself but I can ‘t even think
Is that something sacred?
Do I have to give something back?
My pure seduction, is my pure addiction
My pure destruction, my external satisfaction !!!

(αυτο οταν ημουν high, νομιζω το ειχα βαλει κ σε αλλο μου θρεντ, anyway....:p)

Late nights, long-lasting fights,
Lost inside, falling into death
Maybe I have to take it from the wrong side
Maybe a discrimination could bring a situation into a bleeding river
Screaming till death, my voice hurts, can you hear me?
The left-overs of unfulfilled aims destroy the joy
Too late, it ‘s now too late, to get out from this all
Reaching the loneliness, can ‘t be stopped now, just not this time
Have you ever thought you are a passenger lost in your lies
And feeling nothing about getting into a destruction?
It ‘s meaningless to fight until the first one is wounded
That ‘s when you have to return…

I don ‘t wanna live in the pain of misery
It ‘s pointless to keep trying to get the same expected dreadful result
I can ‘t be anything more than a falling teardrop
Onto my broken cheek this time
I just wanna die, throw it all to fly
I just wanna cry, lose it all but try
Drown to the hollow of pain and curse
Life is incomplete, I see, so why are you waiting this moment?
Getting the only superb praise to keep you alive
But is that what you really want it to be?

Thrown into a heated volcano of burning tears
My tears can ‘t fall anymore, they just revolve around me
It seems like I ‘ll never come back
Passing through a silver bullet is the hardest part to start around
Watching the same old story passing through your eyes
Just come to understand why am I at this disastrous emptiness
Just come to the refuge and save me!

Mistakes brought me now to a failure of desire
I just wish I could live…
I just wanna live…
I ‘ve nothing left to lose, just lost it all!
The arrival of pain doesn ‘t make a sense anymore
Rescue me from this hell!
Hell is the place you ‘re welcome to exist, pleased to touch your lies…
Dissolved and living on a standby, not making any sound
Just what I am scared to experience
Being alone, being alive, feeling regret
Are you just dead? Holding on to find the answer…