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Thread: Please! Calm me down!!! Please
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29-08-2020, 08:43 #1
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Please! Calm me down!!! Please
2 years ago, I made a rushed, promise to God about not rechecking compulsively, twice, the boiler heater, the door, the oven etc.
I do not remember if the promise was only about these things that I used to recheck compulsively or for everything that involves "recheck compulsively"
Today, due to ocd, I wanted to check if my medical results contained any napkin.
I checked the folder fast and saw no napkin. I still, could not convince my mind that it did not had any napkin because I checked it fast. But, even so, a napkin would be easily seen if the folder had one. But, still, I could not control myself, so, I rushly, checked again!
I freaked. Perhaps, that counted as rechecking compulsively. I think, just once was enough. But, I could not convince myself that everythin was ok. I was having thoughts like
"I looked too fast. The paper napkin may not be detected easily in the folder, if i do not look carefully. On the other hand, even though my first glance was fast, I was sure that my folder did not contain any paper napkin. But still, I could not calm me down. I wanted to check it again, slower and more carefully.
I am not sure if that broke the promise. I do not remember the promise. I do not know if the promise counted for only things like "door or the oven" because when I made the promise these were the things that the compulsion was telling me to check again and again. I do not know if in my promise, I was fool enough to make the promise count for everything that has to do with "rechecking'
Do you think I broke the promise?
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